aLl fOR HiM

leadership

2005-06-21T21:18:00.000+08:00

We don't live in a perfect world.

Learn to live with imperfect situations, unresolved issues and unfulfilled expectations

without losing your great spirit.

There's always something that isn't like you want it.Get happy in spite of this.As you

deal with it stay happy, not upset.

If the unresolved problem gets you, then it's won.

Stay on top even when its trying to get you down and you'll win.

This is Christianity at its best.

Staying up in a down situation.

That's leadership.

Jesus holder of my deepest desire

2005-05-27T22:24:00.000+08:00

i wanted to never write in this blog again.. heh but i suddenly felt like sayin all tat has happened to me lately.

Past 3 weeks hav been super tough. Frm e battalion exercise where i walked 13km wth a load of about 25 kg on my bag. ( e bad thing about bein a medic is ive to always walk wth my bag even if e others dun hav to.) Anw tat was fine.. heh den there was these 2 guys who came back frm detention barricks for theft. They stole fmr my platoon mate n nw my platoon's bein dragged down by them n gettin bad again. This week was horrendus.. cldnt slp properly cos we'll keep gettin turned out jus to check for a missin nvg.(night vision goggles) which cost about 10000 bucks. heh

but u noe wad? one thing bein in revival nation has changed me is tat not to look at e probs n mourn( i realise i kept complainin to ppl last time.. heh) but stay strong n praise God for it. n all e more nw when my resolve is bein tested i feel a thirst n desire for God.

Been readin Good mornin Holy Spirit.. been teachin it to my cell e last couple of weeks. I really want a communion wth e Holy Spirit. If anything can make me strong its e Holy Spirit.

Jesus im so in love wth You
Nothin else but Your love will do..

Mon

2005-05-02T08:44:00.000+08:00

jus woke up.. feels so gd to b at home on a mon morn instead of bein in camp. heh wad a day yest. Worship was bad man. feel like it cld hav been so much more. I noe e rest wld say tat there was a presence of God but den i didnt think it was enough.

To me every session of worship led shld led us to a presence of God so strong it leaves us in awe. But den again, yest when i was leadin i suddenly got attacked by a wave of headache n tiredness. Which is strange considerin ive never really felt like tat b4. But wad do u expect considerin im in a church experiencin revival. heh..

it suddenly hit me this morn e moment i woke up. My very first thot was RN ppl. haha honestly apeakin, ive never felt so easy to love every church member b4. I used to b a person tat can find fault wth anything in anyone. hahah

God ans my prayers u noe. heh im finally able to rem my dreams again. but they're complicated nw. so im off to write it down nw.. :D

RN's super cool! haha

2005-04-24T19:48:00.000+08:00

today's service was really funny.. haha bro sean gave a testi about how he got silver for his ippt test n so did i recently. e BIG diff is tat he never trained for a yr while ive been trainin like mad for e past 4 months. haha so u can tell how weak i m. N he was sharin about him runnin his 2.4km n i started rem how i run mine. My runnin route has e road sign one way. haha n tat always reminds me of e song One Way n ill start praisin God wth tat song n ill soon get so absorbed wth singin tat i forget im tired.

e best part today was e new thing daryl introed into RN too. Sayin e verse b4 sayin yes. E first cell meetin he shared tat he hoped it wld b instilled in RN one day n it happened today. haha sooo cool.

Comin to church is soo fun nw. It always encourages me no matter how tired i m.
:) i love RN. My prayer is tat ill really have e church's vision in my heart n tatill always stay close wth God so tat i can fulfil everything tat God desires. :)

Love FOr God

2005-03-26T22:57:00.000+08:00

Yest my church showed e film Passion of Christ.. wow.. first time i watched. Amazing considering how ive not been 18 for so long. haha
but wow.. things r nw in a diff light once i see it on flim rather den read it in e bible. I once teared when i read about it in e bible but this made more impact man.

Anw after e film, a few of us prayed n of cos again there was manifestations. haha.. its become a norm already. But somehow i felt like last week's one was so gd.. Like e manifestations broke free of alot of things tat were in us or e church. I felt this deep deep love for Him growing after it. I mean.. ive always had a passion for God which has been growin but i felt like it is nw on a diff level. Woww... i LOVE Jesus so much. haha i jus wrote my vision n goals for my future cell. Really gonna start frm scrap n go n evangelise n win souls but im confident God will be there wth me all e way.

oh.... n i love my church ppl soooo much nw!!! hahaha i think they're all super cool. Frm pastor all e way down. They all hav passion for God n for one another. Love them... They all hav character n of cos as e bible says: endurance breeds character which is e assurance of our salvation. So these ppl hav endured much. (believe me.. they def hav) n their assurance is gauranteed. :D they're such an inspiration.

Today Joann n Jas wemt to kk hospital to pray n share e gospel wth e sick. I sooooo wanted to go. Sadly got miscom n when they told me i had sth else to do. Oh man.. oh well.. next time.
:)

I feel really happy.. haha k.. i think ive not been manifestin cos i might b controllin.. hmmm

Nights Out

2005-03-15T20:57:00.000+08:00

Whew.. nearly didnt hav nights out otherwise wldnt be able to come home to relax. Some dumb fella stole another guy's hp n wallet in my platoon today. Def an inside job n act its pretty obvious who it is but too bad no evidence.

Last 2 weeks been strange.. Ive had so many dreams of yfers. N they're not yfers tat i used to talk to even. I had a dream of lyn tho. haha think i said sth like she's so adorable like a baby. (she's prob grown bigger anw) yep.. anw i dun miss yf like i used to for a long time so its really strange tat i start dreamin of it. Tryin to take note of wad i did in e dream rather den e ppl cos i think tats wad God's message.

Yepz..

Healed!

2005-03-12T22:05:00.000+08:00

wow.. my grandma DID get her healin.. was so cool. E whole session was breath takin. Benny Hinn's super anointed. Once he worshiped n soaked e presence of God he started to glow. haha n all he had to do was swing his hand at a sectoin of e indoor stadium n they'll all b slain or cryin. Was super amazin.

Kept prayin for my grandma n luckily she got healed. She's so cool, jus so willin to believe in Jesus n to love Him. Tat brought tears to my eyes n i started to hold her n pray for her but at first she didnt receive healin in e service. I was so dissappointed but went to call a ministry worker to pray for her n one came. It was then tat my grandma started to regain her sight n was able to see how many fingers my mum put up. Praise God!!! :D

My church friends r amazin.. Pastor, Sis Von n Su gave up their place in e queue for my parents n Grandma. Tat in itself blessed my grandma more den wad i believe we humans can imagine in our own human minds.

My grandma's super excited about goin to church nw.. haha ill try to get her to go to one. Hopefully CHC. Funny thing was somehow altho she didnt get healin immediately i had this thot tat it doesnt matter cos her faith will gain her e salvation n favor of God. :D

Pray For my dad n grandma!!

2005-03-11T21:30:00.000+08:00

wow.. praise God!! haha i somehow managed to book out today instead of tmr. Was fretting over how i was gonna bring my grandma n my parents to e Benny Hinn's conference. But nw i can go early tmr.
My dad didnt wanna go cos he had class. He's e type tat wld prefer studyin over a conference like this den i told him very directly how much i wanted to see him go n get healed. He has high blood pressure n kidney stones. He's only 50 which i think is quite young. haha but he doesnt take care of his health. Anw tmr, my grandma, dad n myself r goin to get healin. N i believe we will. Grandma's eyesight is goin, daddy has hb n kidney stones n me.. heh ive got a lil colour blindness. :(

today was gd.. had to cover medic for e SOC training n had so many injuries to rush to attend. One asthma, one neck injury n another e knee had a bad cut. sigh.. i like helpin them but i hate seein so many injuries.. Its so scary seeing someone wth asthma attack.

N i was so impressed wth my platoon officer. Really look up to him man but unfortunately we're changin pc s next week. Sigh.. he's man management is super gd man. Here's an exmaple..
He told my friend today b4 e SOC test which he had failed many times b4 tat no matter whether he fails it again he'll be my officer's fav 2nd IC (in command), so my friend jus kept pushin himself on bcos he didnt wanna let my officer down n after 7 tries my friend finally passed.

Really wonderful too.. haiz.. learn so much this week. Wrote a love letter to God again. haha gonna make tat a habit frm nw on. He jus kept makin me learn things. Jus kept makin notes n it all spoke to me so clearly. Love God so much.. :)

Nutty stuff

2005-02-26T23:49:00.000+08:00

heh.. this week was funny. We had a change of platoon sergeant n my whole platoon hates him. Haiz dunno why it has to b like this but he brought it upon himself. He became so arrogant n did unreasonable things since becomin our ps. Anw e whole platoon complained.

Heh to b truthful... i was gettin irritated wth him too. haha he loves to shout n scold us but e worse thing is we all cant understand wads he sayin cos his english cld do with some improvement. Awhile back he wanted to punish us n said to me.. "lionel, down 20 for e platoon".
Wad he act meant was lead e platoon in doin 20 push ups. But his sentence meant tat i do while e rest of e platoon watch. haha but i didnt want any trouble so i did it den halfway he asked me wad m i doin. haha really funny.. den he explained tat he wanted me to lead them b4 i understood. Jus one of e few stupid incidents.

Hav a friend who speaks in his dreams. hahaha really funny!!! He'll mumble den shout some vulgarities. haha den there was once where he said he wanted to kill everyone. hahahah whoa.... weirdo!!!

heh but i feel a heart for him. Wanna keep prayin for him. i feel there's sth special in him. Jus do. dunno why.. :D

wad a week!!

2005-02-19T13:19:00.000+08:00

wow.. Wad a week....

been sharing about God more than ever n been gettin more persecution. Somethings said r totally unbearable but i managed to control cos i think God was helpin me. I really really wanna see my friends in camp come to noe God.

Thank God too cos i was gettin to lose patience wth e persecution but it was book out time so jus nice. Manged to control it for e week. Last week didnt manifest but i feel a love for God more den anything ive felt b4. I feel so happy in my heart too. hahaha cant describe. Nw i spent so much time worshippin n readin e bible n i think i keep smilin when i do do tat. haha plus my heart feels e joy as i worship too.

I guess persecution is gd. It shows im doin e right things. haha things cant b so gd all e time if not i shld start worryin whether im a christian.

Nw everynight.. as i pray i keep feelin a tinge in my heart like someone's huggin me. Sigh.. love God so much. Dun wanna fall away.
OH.. haha n altho i dun manifest much but i wanna b like those pastors or speakers who dun manifest much but when they lay hands on ppl they're so anointed e ppl will manifest like crazy. hahah

FIXED!!!

2005-02-12T21:25:00.000+08:00

haa..

my blog's fixed.. finally..
gonna write down e gd stuff's tats happened. Wrote this on e church's blog too.

Last week my friend teasingly passed me a guit n told me to play. Thing is he n everyone else doesnt noe i play e guit. So anw i did n i started playin rubbish. Den e guys saw tat i cld play n insisted tat i play sth but i dunno anything except christian music so they said nvm jus play tat n i played to the ends of the earth. Then ppl heard e christian music n started comin over n this guy said wow.. i can feel anger leaving me. here's a guy who's been abused when young by his parents, took drugs at 14, got probation at 15 n hacked a guy wth a parang at 17.

Really wanna thank God. I didnt play anything wth skill cos i dun hav any so it def has to b e Holy Spirit touchin my friends.. n nw its opened up doors for me to share God wth my friend.
Im e only christian in e whole camp but i believe tat God will touch their lives one day if i keep praying..

:D

Missin u..

2005-02-12T20:23:00.000+08:00

Hellooo..

ok jus tryin to type sth in this thing again..
Tmr's church!!! heh.. oh man.. its been 6 days but i miss church so much. Cant wait.
If someone's reading this n is not frm RN den let me tell u we had e most radical time last week. haha ppl gettin manifested n gettin holy laughter n all. Wow.. so ive got andrea n varsha saying i was very funny.. heh n varsha said she's never seen me like this b4. Rollin on e ground laughin non stop. Oh well.. its gd for e stomach. heh laughin wth tears comin down n ur stomach hurts but u dunno why ur laughin.. Only reason - Holy spirit. Its super cool..

Anw when all tat happened it gave me a big huge breakthru in my mindset. Im much happier n as pastor prayed it'll b a new beginnin. I certainly feel tat way. Its cool. Wad used to hurt me r nw experiences of e past which does not affect me but makes me draw closer to God.

Dunno how to discribe my feelings.. all i noe nw is tat i wanna learn n grow in God somemore. Its wonderful.. Can never hav enough..

Life is GD!

2004-12-19T20:55:00.000+08:00

life is good.. heh thank God after i committed myself to Him n said i dun wanna dwell on e past He's blessed me back so much. Wth favour frm my commanders, family, friends. N e assurance knowin His jus there by me even right nw. Weird feelin but nice. :)

My week

2004-12-11T13:45:00.000+08:00

oh man.. had e worst week of my life in terms of physical training.. Had field camp for 3 days n den e next day went gym den later on had guard duty. Lacking sleep nw..

Stupid field camp.. nw tat im back in unit ive to do training jus like e rest. In fact, e load i carry is heavier den all of them. Plus wth tat load we had to walk about 4 km of hills, slopes bashin thru forest n so many other things. Nw ive abrasion on my back n cuts on my shoulder. heh wad a way to come back to unit.

But den again i feel tat God's always blessing me. Durin e night in e forest i started thinkin about gd food n esp longed for cheese which later i really received frm e commanders. hahah! Somehow always there's those small little things tat God does for me tat amazes me but if i were to tell it to someone they wont think its great. Anw its gd enough tat i think God's doin things for me. :)

hellooo

2004-12-05T21:59:00.000+08:00

Dunno wad to write but i wanna write sth here cos i dun get e chance to put entries tat often.

Anw.. felt like there's a minor breakthru in me. Felt bolder, happier more comfortable in church.
Still quiet but gettin there n feelin more at ease. Wad Pastor Char said today keeps ringin in my head.. Tat ill do great here in RN. But im sure ill keep on growin here. I want to. I need to.

Anw played bass on sat for Pastor David's teachin session. Another impromptu thing but it was fun. Haven played a bass for sooo long. Still pray for finance to get my own bass. Its gettin irritatin using others' bass cos its hard to adjust to other ppl's instruments.

Oh well.. tmr back to infantry camp. Back to tough life. Maybe ill lose weight.. n disappear. heh

Emotional Fervour

2004-12-04T14:26:00.000+08:00

Weird things jus keeps happening. Earlier this week a guy in my platoon challenged me to a fight for nothing. haha said if i wasnt happy wth him jus say n we can settle outside camp n i went huh?! cos i didnt noe wad he was talkin about. Anw.. i later found out tat he thot i stared at him so he angry wth tat but i never did stare at him.. Hahai mean i dun even noe tat guy well enough to noe any major faults wth him to dislike him. Not to mention i dun stare at ppl to begin wth.

Anw learnt alot in camp as well.. had my passion to read n pray to seek God increase again.
Ive been readin extravagent worship by Darlene Zschech n i like this thing she wrote..
Quotin frm her words about depression "Entertaining these thoughts is so dumb; I do not want to be this person. Negativity and depression are a waste of time n energyas a creative person. I know this is not the divine plan of God for me to live like this. "

I like tat phrase n im gonna adopt it. So ive deleted all my past blogs which was written in depression. To "blog" out those thots n memories of my past n never think about them again n jus move on..

To quote my bunk mate's fav phrase.. " come on guys.. u can do it.. u can do it. " hahah

Today

2004-11-25T19:41:00.000+08:00

heh..

im in a cheerful mood today.. :) Been prayin durin e week tat i may hav a nights off this week cos i wanna go for camp immediately after bookin out this sat. Initially nights off was cancelled cos of a heavy schedule but miraculously we managed to hav one today so here i m.. heh nice n cosy at home.

Was prayin i cld come back cos i wanted to get some stuff as well as leave clothes at home to wash. So God ans my prayers. heh

Today was eventful. Went into a gas chamber to try our suits in case of chemical warfare. Had to take out my mask n smell e smoke. haha whole face stung like mad. Felt like my whole face had pimples n all burst at e same time! haha

Den i had injections. Volunteered my arm for this "bobo" shooter n he shot thru my vein n into my muscle. haha!! tat was fun.. Den my original buddy shot me too n he too shot into my muscle. But he went one step further n hit my nerve. hahaha

Test

2004-11-21T19:59:00.000+08:00

today i had a test in church.. heh an impromptu test but i had SOOO much fun doin it even tho i failed. It was a gd way of judging how much i noe after bein a christian for so long. Church shld hold e test in a way where we do it twice but e first time shld b done impromptu wthout them knowing and then later let them study n take e 2nd test.

haha i wanted to put this idea up on e church blog but i jus noe ppl will hate me for it. so im puttin it up here where i hope its safe.

I tried to evangelise to this guy on sat but nw im afraid he's jus wantin to come n get money frm church. I really pity ppl like these but i dunno how to help him. Nw i almost hope he'll leave us n ME alone. Its quite troubling but im not sad or anything.

Somehow Daryl always chooses songs tat God used durin e week to touch me. haha.. e first time i came to rn it was evermore which God was really using to touch me. This week was Take all of me n he led it too. Previously it was Always n 2 weeks ago it was Where e love lasts forever.

these songs really make me wanna write my own song. But if im not wrong God's been tellin me Daryl will be e first to get tat breakthru in church cos of him bein e leader of worship. But tats all fine n great. heh

Camp Sweet Camp

2004-11-16T05:31:00.000+08:00

timecheck.. 0530. Have to leave for camp nw. Listening to steven curtis chapman "im living e five min.. like its e last 5 min" heh cool..

Somehow dun feel like goin camp. First time im feeling like this. Sigh must b e lack of slp.

Prayer

2004-11-15T23:26:00.000+08:00

So today God was tellin me sth.. sth simple n sth ive heard so many times but it only impacted me today.
Pray very hard for e things tat i desire n God'll answer. So im supposed to pray hard for e revival of my friends, my bass n e things i want. N e salvation of my family. E future in Him tat i want.

God help me..

Impossible dreams r simple if they're Godly dreams.

Heh.. watched this planetshakers' dvd i bought. Its def not as gd as united live or hillsongs for tat matter. Maybe im jus biased. Tho God told my pastor we'll mould into planetshakers form. haha

Amen! So be it..

Love

2004-11-14T21:13:00.000+08:00

e last couple of days hav been gd in terms of church stuff. God spoke to me in both cell n service.
Heard a few things in service tat affirmed me on why i came to this church. Nw i noe i didnt make e wrong decision.

so things God spoke to me about:

1) God has plans to prosper n not to harm us. We have to believe even if our future is uncertain. As pastor put it, u wanna plant sth big like a durian tree u hav to wait b4 u bear fruits. So im willing to wait. :)

2) Love.. heh ive been in church for a month but its only recently tat i heard tat Pastor Char has instilled this love ur nieghour as urself as important as loving God. Exactly my sentiments. Dun believe read my first entry. haah My big golden rule. SO tat affirmed me im in e right place.. :D

Its not jus about dreams. Its about whether there's any chance of fulfillin it. I noe ive moved frm a bigger attendance service(SAC) to a smaller one in rn but i believe ive moved to a bigger church if u look in terms of e heart quality. Ppl here r ready to radical. Change e whole. I wanna join.. heh ive a heart for e disabled children so i really wanna open a childcare center for disabled children. :D

FREE!!!!!

2004-11-14T01:30:00.000+08:00

funny how my blog song is free but my entries of late is anything but me feeling free.. heh
ironic. I guess tats why i love this song. Its my dream to feel tat way. FREE...

Jesus.. i love You so..

2004-11-14T01:23:00.000+08:00

sth happened at home tat made me so angry n fed up i left my house for e first time in a family argument. usually i'll lock myself up in my room. Somehow it was diff n when i was doenstairs i left like jus walkin out unto e road n gettin banged down.
Things wld change in an instant but den i wont have to worry about future, finance, salvation of my family n friends.

I hate bein a melacholic. Things were so gd e last week til e last few days. Once sth sad happens my world grows dim.

But i can go thru it. I know God's somewhere arnd overlooking me. Ill be fine. Ill grow with a determination noone has ever seen b4.... Things will change. IT WILL..

If God's for me nothin can be against me.

Goalsetting

2004-11-10T19:49:00.000+08:00

Been thinkin thru this week n realised there's so many things i want but ive never achieved any.
So nw im gonna list down some(ive filtered out all e things tat r ungodly cos i feel its not as important) heh.

1) But equipment n fix up my room like a studio. Which shld include a sound mixer, amp, guit, bass, drums n keyboard.)

2) Learn n improve my music. Learn how to read scores n learn how to sing. ha..

3) Write songs for God.

4) Read finish e bible.

5) Change my characther! ha..

timeline is by june next yr. Tats quite a long way more to go.. :)

Words to God

2004-11-10T19:20:00.000+08:00

Due to His overwhelming blessings in e past week, ive been led to write this words..
It ain't great or good at all but its words tat overflowed from my heart. So much so i cldnt stop writing it till i felt it was completed.

I hope i can do better n create songs that will touch thousands next time. :D

You put Your Name in my heart
That i might know You more
Cos You're all i want

You held me in Your hands
Covered me with wings of Your angels
Lifted me high from my fallen grace

Ypu fill my heart with eternal love
Shed Your blood for my shamelessness
Who can ever know
E full extent of Your glory

Praise You Lord
I love You wth all my heart

totally bogus..

2004-10-31T00:21:00.000+08:00

This week ive been tryin to evangelise. Found a christian friend in my platoon! Thank God! haha.. Apparently he's frm CHC. Cool.. Life's ambition is to be a missionary. Haha even more cool..

So anw.. we were trying to reach out to this guy together when this fella suddenly told us a story on why he didnt believe in God.

Goes like this.. this christian family jus experienced e death of one of their family members. i think its e daughter. So anw e brother went to this medium to try to "contact" his sis so that he can ask how she is. So e medium did jus tat n soon she told e brother tat e sis was suffering in hell becos e family believes in God n hasnt been burning joss paper, hell money n those kinda paper houses for her. So after tat the bro n e family stopped believin in God n started believin in buddhism.

heh.. u noe wad? in e first place.. if e bro was a christian why did he visit e medium? N why doesnt he have e faith to believe tat God will provide for his sis? weird..

Talking about weird.. today wasnt feeling well so i went to slp n dreamt this really weird thing. Dreamt tat i was gettin delivered! haha someone said in e name of Jesus get out of him n i started gettin delivered. This is e 3rd time ive dreamt this kinda thing. E first 2 was done by Carlos Anaconda. Extremely cool..

but weird..

Kites rise highest against e wind,
not wth it.

Mr Lionel Sim

2004-10-25T11:18:00.000+08:00

Cant believe im actually typing down my feelings on e net.
So weird.. But thot ill jus try it out.

So... i thot ill jus start it off by telling who i m..

I believe in sth i call my BIG GOLDEN RULE.
N tats to love everyone (be it be enemies or friends or family) to a point where ur willing to lay ur life down for them. Tats my basic believe in life. Cos i noe tat once ppl get to tat point where they'll die for anyone they'll really understand how Jesus felt when He died for us.

Anw.. im a simple person wth not not much talent. Always amazed at other ppl's ability to write songs or e results they get in sch or e way they excel in their musical instruments. Ive already made a promise to myself tat im gonna get my future child to start learning music at an early age. heh :D

But dun get me wrong. Im not one who condemns myself. On e contrary i believe God's gonna do sth great in my life. Ive jus gotta keep pushing on.
N im also one who'll worship whenever i feel sad, whenever probs arise. I dunno why. But music is my way of cryin out to God. Music soothes me. heh..

when you were born, you cried n e world rejoiced.
Live ur life in such a manner tat when u die e world cries n u rejoice.